Abigail has become afraid that I’m going to leave and never come back. I have no idea where that idea came from, but it could not be timed worse. I guess none of us should ever promise that won’t happen, because we can’t control everything. James 4:13-16 says, “Now listen, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.” Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.” I’m really aware of all that right now. I want to promise and assure her that I’ll always return, but I just can’t. Now or after I’m healed. I will settle for promising her that I would never purposely stay or go away from her.
The second chemo treatment went well and if I wasn’t so tired I would be encouraged. The chemo nurse says I seem much better than the other people she gives these drugs (Thank-you, the Lord is my healer, Ex 15:26 and strength, Ex 15:2). Dr. Rassam noted my lump is much smaller, which means the chemo is working on the other parts of my body as well. He is really concerned about my going to Texas, thinks I should just do that as a last resort after standard treatment doesn’t work. I see his point, but I know God wants me to go there. So maybe I’ll get better results than the standard treatment. Or maybe I’ll go and glorify God to all the people who need to hear about Him there. Maybe I’ll be so humble that I’ll get out of His way and He can use me in the most amazing ways that none of us would ever expect. All these options are amazing blessings, and I can’t wait to see how He works. The appointment isn’t scheduled just yet but it will be the week of January 9.
Romans 15:5-7 “May the God who gives endurance and encouragement give you the same attitude of mind toward each other that Christ Jesus had, so that with one mind and one voice you may glorify the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ.”