Dayenu–Treatment 3

Our family celebrates Passover the way Jesus did, and there are always eye openers about how certain components of it were fulfilled by Him. Parts of it get boring and feel ritualistic because I’m a sinner with a short attention span. However, throughout this cancer process (I really need a good word for it!) I have often prayed “Dayenu” and thought of that part of the passover.

Dayenu means “we would have been satisfied”, and the head of the household reads a list of awesome things God did for the jewish people and the people in turn cheer, “Dayenu!” to indicate that what He did was more than enough for us. Of course, we are all sinners so those are just words. We know from experience that no matter what we say, we forget the awesome things God does frequently. For example, “No sooner had Gideon died than the Israelites again prostituted themselves to the Baals. They set up Baal-Berith as their god and did not remember the LORD their God, who had rescued them from the hands of all their enemies on every side.” (Judges 8:33-35)

It’s a little late to type the list of 14 examples of what He did from our Haggadah, and there’s no magic number to it anyway. But an example is, “If He had merely rescued us from Egypt, but had not punished the Egyptians, DAYENU”. I am so touched by the Lord’s mercy and love I’m going to make my own list.I added a few extras because God is that good.

“If He had merely saved my soul but left me without a partner, DAYENU”
“If He had introduced me to Yaacov but left me without children, DAYENU”
“If He had blessed me with Abigail for even a day, but hadn’t given me 4 years with her, DAYENU”
“If He had given me Naomi but gave me less than 9 months with her, DAYENU”
“If He had put friends and family in my life but not allowed us to grow together from an advanced cancer diagnosis, DAYENU”
“If He had moved my Dr. Perry to order an ultrasound for my lump, but it was left with a false negative and thus shorter life, DAYENU”
 “If He had Dr. Perry refer me for a surgical consultation, but didn’t have Neenad tell me it should be with Dr. Crooms, DAYENU”
“If He had introduced me to Dr. Crooms but didn’t get him to secure a proper diagnosis so quickly, DAYENU”
 “If He had merely allowed satan to threaten my life but chose not to give me the warnings, DAYENU”
“If He had given me the warnings via proper diagnoses, but didn’t get me to Dr. Rassam, DAYENU”
“If He had convinced us to go to the hospital in Texas but did not secure insurance approval, DAYENU”
“If He had secured insurance approval but not a fundraiser to help with other expenses, DAYENU”
“If He had moved people to raise funds for us but it was no incredibly successful, DAYENU””If He had helped me cover my head but not to overcome the shame from losing my hair, DAYENU”
“If He had allowed me to go through chemo but hadn’t made my tumor shrink 2 cm, DAYENU”
“If He had just comforted me through three rounds of the worst type of chemo but didn’t make me feel better than ever, WE WOULD HAVE BEEN SATISFIED!”

Praise the LORD. Praise God in his sanctuary; praise him in his mighty heavens. Psalm 150:1

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2 thoughts on “Dayenu–Treatment 3

  1. You continue to inspire me. I love the list of all the ways that God has exceedingly blessed you! I am going to make a list like that. We, as sinners, get so bogged down in life that we constantly overlook all of His abundant grace. We are praying about your trip to Texas. We love you!

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