Today was slightly better, physically, but it was another awful day. I know I need to get out of this downward spiral before it’s too late, but I don’t really want to. I want to feel sorry for myself and post a list of every bad thing that happened today so that everyone who reads this will feel sorry for me too. Oh, and I want to eat a huge brownie sundae while I do it… I deserve it, right?
One of the worst things about knowing what the Bible says is that I have no excuse to make bad choices. Not that I’m a Bible expert, but I can’t plead ignorance on this. When I committed my life to Christ I knew that I didn’t deserve His love, sacrifice, or forgiveness, but He gave it freely. Just because times are tough now I can’t waste time acting like some poor victim who deserves better. I certainly can’t break all the rules and blame it on my circumstances. For the record, the rules I’m referring to now re: 1) Say positive things [“A good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and an evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For the mouth speaks what the heart is full of.” (Luke 6:45), “Death and life are in the power of the tongue: and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof.” (Proverbs 18:21)] and 2) Focus on God instead of myself [Colossians 3:1 “Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. Set your mind on things above, not on earthly things.” (Col 3:1-2).
When I started this post I was ready to go on and on until I convinced myself to cheer up. But God already took care of it. I feel fine now. The piddly things that were bugging me are gone. So, I guess I’ll quit while I’m ahead. We’re going to pack in the AM then leave for Texas. I hope to blog frequently from there but am not sure about the internet access. I am ready, ready, ready for some good news and look forward to sharing it on here as soon as I get it.
Farewell for now, friends! Thanks for caring and praying, I love you all!