Chemo treatment #4. The best I expected was to go in quickly, hear my lump is very small and get a quick dose of the “red devil juice” (they call it that, I don’t). I was already excited because after this I have just 12 weeks of a gentler drug.

God had better plans for me today. I asked Dr. Rassam about his recommendation for my surgery and out of nowhere he mentioned that it might turn out that I actually have stage 3 instead of stage 4 cancer! That is literally the difference between a death sentence and a curable illness! We scheduled a PET scan for Thursday (1/26), and I will get the results within a week after that. I’m so excited, so excited, so excited.

I know some of you will think it’s a bad idea for me to be excited about this, because I should actually expect the worst. However, I don’t think that’s biblical. How can I have all this hope and joy but stifle it in case I get disappointed? First of all, I would be doing that just to protect myself. I don’t need protecting, that’s God’s job! Ps 127:7 says, “The Lord will keep you from all harm–He will watch over your life.” I also don’t want to  think it will be bad because that’s a lack of faith. I believe God will heal me. I don’t know that this is the start of it, but it very well could be. There are many cases in which this happens. Instead of sudden healing, it’s gradual, with restaging to lower and lower stages until it’s gone,. Then the doctors say it was due to misdiagnoses. In my case, three oncologists reviewed the case and told me unequivically, “there is a 0% chance you will be cured of cancer”. We’ll know the truth–that God healed me.

Anyway, it hasn’t happened yet, but I’m hoping and praying that it will. This is THE time I need everyone we can to pray. I know it’s selfish but I also know a ton of people have offered and are praying already, so this is really specific. At this point, it’s the most important, time-sensitive prayer I’ve ever had. This could be the beginning of my healing! Please, please pray and ask those people you have praying for us that: the results of the next PET scan will accurately demonstrate that there is no cancer beyond my breasts. My lungs, spine, and all other bones and organs are entirely cancer free. I’m so very hopeful that God will choose now to answer this prayer. Please remember that this is the time to BELIEVE God will answer. James 1:6 “But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.” That belief is called faith, and James 5:15 says, “ And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise him up. If he has sinned, he will be forgiven.”

Many thanks for the prayers and support, I love you all!

23 thoughts on “BEST DAY SO FAR

  1. I got your message and have been checking your blog waiting for the details. I am so excited! He is so good that I can barely stand it! My fervent prayer for you in the coming week is going to be specifically about the coming PET scan. I praise Him for what He has done, is doing and will continue to do in you. I can't wait to hear the results! Lots of love and prayers to you, sweet friend!


  2. Open your windows Erin, you'll hear the Huber's singing Amazing Grace! (badly but we're singing with joy for you!) This is the answer to the prayer that we have been hoping for to hear that you have no cancer anywhere else in your body is a miracle in itself! Fingers and toes crossed the 26th is good news as well!


  3. We don't personally know each other, Erin but I have been following your story and praying for you through a friend. Praise God for your news today!! I will continue to pray for your healing. I, like so many others, am truly touched and inspired by your unwaivering faith and conviction through all of this. You are a faithful servant shining the light of Jesus to all who follow your story and a witness of His love and grace in a time of such uncertainty…… and He is pleased!


  4. “Against all hope, in hope Abraham believed” and it was “credited to Him as righteousness”. Erin, you are becoming righteous through your faith and belief! And you inspire me to hold fast to hope. Stand firm! I don't know you Erin, but we both love the same God and that makes us deeply connected through a faith few understand. My husband and I pray for you daily, my children pray for you each night and we stand with you- that our Mighty, Holy and ALL POWERFUL God will deliver you! We wait in hopeful expectation! Come Lord Jesus!


  5. Oh, my heavens above!! Erin, the Swansons DO believe the Lord will answer our prayers and my friend, we are praying like crazy around here for your total and complete healing. My husband, Brett, said to tell you that we're going to pray you down to stage 2.

    With kindness,


  6. Erin I don't know you at all and I doubt we even have many mutual friends though I am from Tallahassee too. However I have been praying for you so hard the past few days and I really feel God has already answered your prayers and you are being healed. I have gotten quite a few people to pray for you around the country as well (talking several congregations of sisters who pray all day, cloistered). You have beautiful babies. Beautiful family and beautiful faith. God is certainly with you, though I know I don't need to tell you that! I will keep praying and keep urging prayer. Hoping and praying with you. God bless!


  7. Erin, I let your “WW buddies” on the L2L Board know about this, and you should hear the buzz going on! Everyone is thrilled, praying, and wishing you the best. Several of the girls jumped all over this and said “I'm going to her blog right now!”
    Thank you so much for letting us know.
    Praying, and trusting our amazing Lord!!


  8. I am agreeing with you in prayer, Erin! This news was welcome and yet not a surprise! Only God knows His plan for you, but I will continue to pray for complete miraculous DIVINE healing as long as it is still possible! Blessings to you, Yaacov and your beautiful children!


  9. Erin, this is amazing! What an incredible reminder to never lose hope! As everything can seemingly change for the worst in an instant, it can also change for the better! We will be praying for you in Vermont! XOXOX


  10. I saw your prayer request on Kelly's Korner and I have been praying for you for the last few weeks. I saw a woman named Elise on the Today show that was diagnosed with Stage IV breast cancer last year and she got recent news from her doctors that there is no evidence of disease. This is her blog She does tend to use some colorful language.


  11. Erin, you and your family most certainly have my prayers. I know we don't “know” each other but I suppose the fact that we are sisters in Christ gets us part of the way there, right? {hugs}


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