While I have not heard from the doctors about the PET scan yet, I much more importantly believe I have been healed by God. So it doesn’t matter what they say Thursday.
It all started with my new favorite verses from the Bible. Mark 11:22-24 says these extremely important words, ” ‘Have faith in God’ Jesus answered. ‘Truly I tell you, if anyone says to this mountain, ‘Go throw yourself into the sea’ and does not doubt in his heart but believes that what they say will happen, it will be done for them. Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.”
I meditated on these verses, discussed what else it could possibly mean with Yaacov, and prayed a lot about it. Then I went outside, rebuked the devil in Jesus’ name, and prayed for help keeping him out. In this prayer I specifically asked for healing along with freedom from this spirit that has been making me misplace items all the time. Afterward I felt the same but because the word says, “BELIEVE you have RECEIVED it”, I believed. I told Yaacov I was healed and only then was I filled with the holy spirit. It felt awesome and reassuring.
That should be enough (Dayenu!), but it gets better. I decided that someone who is healed does not check on her lump so I’m not feeling it anymore, nor am I saying, “I have cancer” because I don’t. If it continues to show up on the tests I will say, “I was diagnosed with cancer.”
Anyway, throughout the day I was frustrated to misplace a few more things. So I finally prayed that God would show me missing items to demonstrate that my prayers had been answered. As I finished praying I lifted up the deflated air mattress that has been sitting in our junk room for two weeks. No one has touched it during that time. Underneath the mattress was my missing hat. Mind you, I was given that hat last Wednesday (1/25) and hadn’t seen it since I wore it (1/26). I rarely go into that room and had not on the day I wore it. But there it was. Under something that hadn’t been moved since January 16. Get it? “BELIEVE THAT YOU HAVE RECEIVED IT AND IT WILL BE YOURS.” That’s it. It is done.