I know this isn’t a very formal way to invite people, but we’d love to celebrate God’s healing with as many people as possible. We will be at Tom Brown park Friday (tomorrow) from about 4-6pm. That way kids can play, we’ll have food and lots and lots of joy. There may be dancing. Consider it canceled if it rains. We picked that time to try to catch kids before dinner, or parents on the way home from work. Hopefully lots of you can be there, and I’m sorry to those it doesn’t work out for.
Well, well, well!
When it was finally time for my appointment I was called back to the nurse’s station to get my vitals. Dr. Rassam walked by and said, “Your PET scan! It’s all gone, your cancer is gone and I can’t explain it!” I jumped up and asked him to repeat it and he said, “well, there’s a little in your lungs still.”
We waited in the room for quite awhile and while we did, we prayed that he was wrong about it being in my lungs. I prayed that his eyes would be opened to what the PET scan results actually said. Finally, he walked in and that’s exactly what happened! All the metastases are gone–it’s gone from my spine (“impossible”, they’d said!), GONE from my lungs (5 minutes earlier he’d said it was there, but I saw it in writing), lyphnodes are cancer-free, and just a tiny bit is left in my breast. He felt and said it’s primarily fibrous tissue in that.
Yaacov was with me and we both said, “it’s a miracle!” to which Rassam agreed.
He said there is no such thing as restaging me, I will just always have the diagnosis of Stage 4. But I know I don’t have it. As of now, I will continue to follow the doctor’s directions, but if God leads me to stopping the medications I will. So the plan is the same as before–12 weeks of this easy type of chemo, then discuss surgery, and be on a hormone forever. One step at a time though and that’s praising God for being awesome, amazing, wonderful, wonderous, perfect and perfect and perfect and perfect.
For once I am actualy speechless. What He did for me is so unfathomable I’m still awestruck. Despite all my prayers I didn’t exactly expect this to be the best day of my life. I just can’t wrap my head around it. Why did He do this for me? How could He love me this much?
“Sing to the Lord, all the erth; proclaim his salvation day after day. Decare his glory among the nations, his marvelous deeds among all peoples. For great is the Lord and most worthy of praise; he is to be feared above all gods. For all the gods of the nations are idols, but the Lord made the heavens. Splendor and majesty are before him; strength and joy in his dwelling place. Ascribe to the Lord glory and strength, ascribe to the Lord the glory due his name. Bring an offering and come before him; worship the Lord in the splendor of his holiness.” 1 Chron 16:23-29
“Give thaks to the Lord, for he is good; his love endures forever. Cry out, “Save us, God our Savior; gather us and deliver us from the nations, that we may give thanks to your holy name, that we may glory in your praise. Praise be to the Lord, the God of Israel, from everlasting to everlasting.” 1 Chron 16: 34-36
“I will praise you, O Lord, among the nations; I will sing of you among the peoples. For great is your love, reaching to the heavens; your faithfulness reaches to the skies. Be exalted, O God, above the heavens; let your glory be ver all the earth.” Ps 57:9-11
“Praise the Lord. Praise God in his sancturary; praise him in his mighty heavns. Praise him for his acts of power; praise him for hs surpassing greatness. Praise him with the sounding of the trumpet, praise him with the harp and lyre, praise him with tambourine and dancing ,praise him with the strings and flute, praise him with the clash of cymbals, praise him with resounding cymbals. Let everything that has breath praise the Lord. Praise the Lord.” Psalm 150
And by the way, God is good.
Can’t sleep. Suspense is killing me. I was just telling God I’ve never prayed so much in my life. Not that He didn’t know. Then I realized if there was ever a time, this is it. So I guess I’ll just read and pray all night.
A lot of good things happened today. The early morning was crummy so I was praying about some things and feeling lonely and discouraged. Then I got to my AM bible study and a woman there (who has been miraculously healed herself) pulled me aside and told me exactly what to do and pray. She had no idea that’s exactly what I’d done this AM. That was nice encouragement, and a great reminder that I’m not alone, no matter how it feels sometimes.
Later I was still feeling a little down and opened my devotional. It happened to be incredibly encouraging and reassuring. It included Galatians 6:9, “for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart”, and 2 Cor 4:1, “do not lose heart”.
Finally, at my PM bible study (yes, Wednesdays are filled with God times!), we are studying James and learned that the original Greek term for 1:1’s “Greetings” is “Joy to you”, and that we all have joy as a birthright. I don’t feel a lot of joy right now, except when I imagine telling everyone I’m officially healed. That will be a great day and I sure hope it’s tomorrow. But if not, my joy is actually in the Lord no matter what, and I have to remember that.
If the results are bad tomorrow it’s okay, because I will still be healed in His time. God is good no matter what, and we’re going to have a little celebration in His honor tomorrow, regardless of the circumstances.
So…that’s it. I feel like I’ve been waiting years to get these stinking results. It’s definitely time.