What a nice day! I’m officially half-way done with my radiation treatments, and that in itself is very exciting. The treatments aren’t bad and I enjoy the people there, but going every single day has been taxing. It’s in the middle of the day, which also happens to be Naomi’s naptime, so it feels like I never get a break. I prayed a lot about it yesterday, because it was making me very unpleasant to be around, and I guess my answer was a much easier, more peaceful day today.
So the first cool events occurred during radiation today. I have to depend on my radiation therapist to use a speaker and tell me when to start the special breathing I previously described. If she happens to forget, I start when I hear the machine kick on but so far that has been too late. I have to redo it, and the extra few minutes of fancy breathing is tough. So today she set me up on the machine and as soon as I got inside God told me to start breathing. If you don’t know God, that’s one of those times you would later say, “something told me…”. I recognized that as His, not my own, voice and started it. It turned out she did forget to tell me so we would have had to redo that one. So that was cool.
It turned out the machine went offline while I was in there anyway, so we did have to redo it. After a delay I went back in and heard that same idea of “Start your breathing”. This time I didn’t recognize it was God and thought, “she would NEVER forget to tell me twice in a row.” So, I didn’t do it. A second later, the speaker made this garbly sound and I heard the therapist’s voice quietly say, “Okay, start your breathing”. I did. When the scan was done she ran in and apologized for not having told me to breathe. Amazed, I told her I had heard her voice through the speaker. There was another worker who was with her and both insist she didn’t say a word into the speaker, or about breathing!!!!!!!!! WHAT?!? Who was that? Ahem, it was the great “I AM”.
Exodus 3:14, “God said to Moses, ‘I AM who I AM’. This is what you are to say to the Israelites, I AM has sent me to you”
Another interesting thing that happened today was that I got a call from Dr. McAlpine’s office. Basically, he is still concerned that I’m going to get ovarian cancer, because that’s really common with BRCA 1 people (usually after age 40, but I’m always the exception!). Dr. Rassam is not at all concerned that I’ll get it so doesn’t want to screen me for it. So I’m still seeing Dr. Rassam for breast cancer screening but also McAlpine for ovarian screening. Ovarian screening is really behind the times, so we’re doing all that’s possible–blood tests and utrasounds, midway between the scans I get from Rassam. Anyway, last week I had that blood test and it happened to include one for the breast cancer too. I was not concerned at all until today when McAlpine’s nurse left a message to call her. She sounded devastated and I almost forgot Deut 31:8, “The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; Do not be discouraged.” I really didn’t think I suddenly had cancer, but did think some of the (notoriously inconsistent) results might have been bad and would result in a little chaos and additional testing or problems. Anyway, I called back and she still sounded like she was about to tell me someone died. But she said both tests were normal, hooray!!!!
Habakkuk 3:2, “Lord, I have heard of your fame; I stand in awe of your deeds, O Lord. Renew them in our day, i our time make them known.”