I have found myself in the midst of a war. The very first battle, between good and evil still continues to this day and I was blissfully unaware of much of it until recently. One thing is that I have been called to minister to and pray for sick people, mostly those with cancer, and it sometimes takes a mental toll on me. I start feeling like I’m praying the same words day after day, but just for different people. Like a broken record I pray from necessity rather than from the deep, wounded brokenness that overflows from the soul of an unworthy sinner. So I pray to care more, pray to break more, pray to yearn more. Then the worst thing happens–He answers those prayers. My circumstances change and I care more, ache from the inside out, cry out to the Lord for the ability to even comprehend the evil that surrounds me.

Psalm 34:15-18
“The eyes of the Lord are on the righteous, and his ears are attentive to their cry; but the face of the Lord is against those who do evil, to blot out their name from the earth. The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”

I’m so saddened by the circumstances around me, and I am trying not to allow them to interfere with the celebration of the season. We should reflect on the amazing gift of Jesus. He came willingly into the world, and didn’t sin. He was the only one who didn’t deserve death, but He carried our sins just because He loved us. And He is now the only way to get to heaven. None of that will ever change. Our interpretation, understanding, or circumstances all change, but those truths will stay the same.

Malachi 3:6, “For I am the Lord, I do not change; Therefore you are not consumed O sons of Jacob”

I am supremely excited to tell you that Debora and I will be giving our testimonies on January 16 at Four Oaks Community Church. I’ve been honored to share it at many other places, but Four Oaks is our church home! I’ve been praying for and waiting on this opportunity for almost two years now. It will be well worth the wait, because we get to boast about His awesomeness there! If you’re in town please come rejoice with us about the amazing God we serve.

I’m going through some really difficult circumstances right now but I have to be vague about all the details. So instead I ask that you join me in praying for protection for my family and the families of all those we’ve prayed for in the past, that they would increase in faith and peace, and for help in focusing on the Lord. Pray also that the Lord will use us all for His good, and that we would see Him in all things. I have some prayer updates and new requests that I’ll put below:

Barbara–We were praying for her clear PET scan. We didn’t get that miracle yet, but we will not lose faith. Her liver looks better but it grew in other places, so they are trying to remove some to assess what best destroys it then use those drugs on here. Sounds pretty cool to me. Pray she will have total relief from pain, doctors will treat her properly, and for a complete and miraculous removal of all cancer cells

Sally–PRAISE: A long time ago I talked about her on here. She was diagnosed with stage 4 BC soon after I was, and hers disappeared. It’s been over a year without cancer and she had a bad PET scan recently, but HOORAY, the Lord had that disappear and further tests showed it was nothing.

Alison–PRAISE! At her 6 month scan they saw she has been cancer-free for over a year and a half! Glory be to God!!!!

Ryan–He has stage 4 stomach cancer and has been on chemo forever. He has a baby and has battling this for two years. Enough is enough, it’s time for this miracle. Let’s believe it for them because they are weak, tired, and worn out. We will carry him to the Lord and the Lord will heal him because of our faith (Mark 2:3-5)

Crystal–She and the others below are new on this list. She is young and was suddenly diagnosed with stage 4 BC. It’s all over her body and the chemo didn’t work so they are radiating most of her torso. They fear it is in her brain and are awaiting a CT scan. Please pray for her comfort and that she will lean on Him, as well as for her family’s peace, faith and comfort. Pray in the short run for immediate relief from her vomiting and that her brain scan shows absolutely nothing is wrong, and again for long run total healing.

Marlena–She is young and has already seen the Lord do great things with her diagnosis. There were fears that it had spread but He put those to rest. However, she’s undergoing chemo and has had a really hard time recovering from that. Please pray He will strengthen her so she can maintain her role as a mother and that He will make anything she needs to give up or modify very clear.

Jenny–She is a pastor’s wife who has had a recurrence of BC. She has a long list of awesome things the Lord has done to show her that He is in charge and is running things smoothly. She will have a bilateral mastectomy on Friday because she already had radiation. Please pray that the surgery goes well and with a smooth recovery and that the doctors have wisdom for all the proper treatment.

Teri–She loves the Lord and her triple negative BC did not spread, which is great. She’s going through chemo and trying to stay positive, but it’s really hard to work while undergoing treatment and she cannot take much time off. Please pray for her supernatural response to the chemo, that she would stay healthy and not struggle with the normal side effects of the treatment.

Contessa–This is the young mom whose home burned down a few weeks ago. She is doing well and has a new place to stay. We are collecting money for her utility deposit. Please pray she gets everything she needs and draws closer to the Lord through this experience.

8 thoughts on “Circumstances

  1. Praise Report from Teri – results from gene testing – negative! No BRCA 1 or 2. What an awesome God we serve. Erin, I will be praying for you and your little family whatever the issue and thanking God for you everyday!! Love you sister.


  2. Hello,
    I've been reading your blog… amazing.
    I wanted to let know about something that you/your followers might be interested in. Camp Kesem at FSU is a non-profit organization that provides a free week of summer camp to children who have a parent diagnosed with cancer. There are three million children with a parent with cancer and Camp Kesem strives to address the emotional needs of these children. We would love to share some information with you. or you can email us at


  3. Erin, I pray your current circumstances improve; that The Lord Jesus will grant you relief, peace and encouragement. I want to share your blog with my younger sister, who was just diagnosed with Lobular Cancer in her breast. There is definitely cancer in my Mom's side of the family. Our Mother is a survivor (15 year,) but her fraternal twin died in the 10th year, five years after her cancer metastacized into her stomach and bones. My second youngest sister just had a lumpectomy with three lymph nodes removed. The doctors are optimistic that they got it all. She is a real prayer warrier, and completely believed that Jesus would heal her. My youngest sister is the most recent victim. She is angry and confused, since she has been a “health nut” most of her adult life. I want her to know the power of prayer to the one true healer, Jesus Christ. She believes in Him, but I think she is skeptical that HE still heals today. Please pray for her. . . Jesus knows her name. . . that she will feel the warmth of HIS healing touch as he removes the cancer from her body. In Jesus name, Amen!


  4. Wow, we will pray, mostly for your youngest sister's faith and emotional healing. It's so much more important than the physical stuff, and sometimes it takes a situation like this to get there! Keep us updated!


  5. Erin, this is Mandy Yoder (-: We haven't chatted for some time. You came to my mind recently because I know that you are a faithful prayer warrior and that you have a heart for people with cancer. We found out just recently that my mom's blood cancer, “Multiple Myeloma,” came back. I believe that the Lord has already or will heal her, and get all of the glory. I really felt the Lord telling me that HE would heal her and mount her up on eagles wings about a year ago. Perhaps this has occurred just so man doesn't steal any of our Father's glory. Please keep it in prayer, it would mean so much to me, her name is Nancy. She is a believer and she's young, only 66. For a big part of her life she has struggled with health issues, I pray that I would have some beautiful years with her feeling strong and well (-; Thank you so much Erin for all that you do for so many. Lord bless. Matthew 25:40 Happy New Year


  6. Mandy, we are praying! Please keep me updated so we can share the details behind His ultimate healing! I think it's especially hard that she's struggled for many years with health. Let's pray with Jesus' authority against it. He will bind up Satan and the control he's had over her body once and for all!


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