I’ve been treasuring something in my heart, I guess the way Mary did when Jesus delighted and surprised her–before He proved Himself to the world. It’s a doozy to me, but part of that is the timeliness of the revelation amongst the general struggles I’ve had. So, over the past few years my faith peaked, and has since faltered a bit. The peak lasted between my own healing and Debora’s, and I saw all things of God through a different lens–one I never knew existed. You know, faith is the “assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen (Heb 11:1)”. When I was healed that took on new meaning, I discovered that God was so much bigger than the things we could see or understand, and that He would and does do more than we can see or understand. But, after the peak came the fall, where I witnessed less and less of His awesomeness and therefore have come to expect less and less of Him.
Some would say this lowered expectation of God is a more appropriate guideline. That it’s arrogant or ignorant to expect more of Him in this day and age. It’s certainly easier to fit that “God” into my schema and life. People don’t need you to explain or convince them to have faith in a God who helps our but isn’t a real Helper. That “God” is simple enough for humans without the Holy Spirit to understand. You don’t get disappointed by the One who Can answer but choose not to. I don’t cry as much this way. Don’t feel the need to lie prostrate on the floor before the Almighty God and plead for the needs of the people He created…
The burden might seem lifted when the only real prayer you say in a day is, “Your will be done”, right? Because it doesn’t bind us with the desires of our hearts. It pawns off the responsibility of intercessory love so we can get back to the hard work He has called us to.
But…that’s not real faith. That’s trusting in ourselves and hoping in a god as powerful as a turbo boost of good luck.
That’s not the God we serve.
We serve the One who created us. Who chose us, delights in us, rescues us, heals us, helps us, guides us, intercedes for us, who became flesh for us, who was cursed and hung on a tree for us, forgave us, and loves us. He loves us too well for us to overlook the hard parts of His calling and our faith. I will choose to be holy as He is holy (1 Peter 1:16), I will declare the works I have known Him to do, and I will not belittle Him by expecting things like that to end.
Jesus did many miracles and healed many in the gospels. Some say He doesn’t do that stuff anymore, but I’m living proof that He does. He is glorified when people see His hand at work like that. And He was in the healing business before He became flesh. In Numbers 12, Miriam complained about her brother Miriam. That was particularly offensive to God because it was like grumbling against Him. He punished her with leprosy, which would get her put out of the camp and eventually would be the end of her. Moses did NOT say, “Oh gracious God, your will be done!”, or, “Thank you for punishing her, she really hurt my feelings and obviously she deserved it.” Nope. This man, who God had just said is “faithful in all my house…and he beholds the form of the Lord” (12:7) saw the leprosy and “cried out to the Lord, ‘O God, please heal her–please“. We know this is a foreshadowing of how Jesus would pray for the lost from His place on the cross. But it was literal in this case regarding physical healing as well–God answered Moses’ prayer.
God didn’t look down on Moses for praying that way, Later he is described as the most humble man who ever lived. So it’s not prideful to pray like that. Not faithless to ask for miracles. He set a great example and it’s our job to follow it.
With that said, please join me in praying in faith for total healing for Lyn, Julie, Karen, and another unnamed friend, all with stage 4 cancer. Lyn has a PET scan tomorrow (Monday), and expects to get the results Wednesday. I noticed that Moses and all the sick people who Jesus and the disciples healed were not expected to explain why they wanted the healing. Perhaps it’s because the reasons don’t matter That every person is equally valuable to the God who doesn’t show favoritism. And because it doesn’t matter how righteous we are, we don’t deserve His salvation, healing, or anything else. But He blesses us with it anyway, because Jesus bore our sins. In Psalm 116:5, it says the death of every saint is precious to God. He cares about our lives and deaths! I’m not suggesting that life on earth is any better than eternity in heaven. But these ladies all have the desire to stay on earth longer, and I ask that we pray for His supernatural healing, not for the sake of their great doctors, but in spite of the doctors, for the sake of our precious, perfect father. May they be healed fully, in such a way that the One who does it receives the credit. To Him be the glory!