The Art of Worthlessness and the Joy of Hope

I’m totally worthless, and I don’t say that in some sort of low self-esteem, depressed tone. I mean that I am completely devoid of all value. The things I do each day could be done by anyone. I live now to glorify God and not only do I repeatedly fail to do so, it also doesn’t matter to anyone but me that I do. The … Continue reading The Art of Worthlessness and the Joy of Hope

Ending that 21 day challenge and some prayers/praises

I need to take a minute to post a few prayer requests that people have made me aware of (usually through comments on here) If you send them to me, please let me know the results, the less we know the harder it is to pray, and honestly when there are so many to pray for sometimes it’s the details we learn that remind us … Continue reading Ending that 21 day challenge and some prayers/praises

Circumstances

I have found myself in the midst of a war. The very first battle, between good and evil still continues to this day and I was blissfully unaware of much of it until recently. One thing is that I have been called to minister to and pray for sick people, mostly those with cancer, and it sometimes takes a mental toll on me. I start … Continue reading Circumstances

Is anything too hard for God? (duh)

I told you at least once on here about a sweet woman named Barbara. She lives in Tallahassee and in February was admitted to the hospital for pain only to discover she had extensive cancer all over. Last I knew her treatments (and God…mostly God) helped remove it from her lungs but it was still in her liver. Her whole family is devoted to Christ … Continue reading Is anything too hard for God? (duh)

Not Enough

It’s been almost 2 years since my diagnosis. This time in 2012 my dad drove from West Palm (7 hours) to watch the girls while I went for an ultrasound on the lump in my breast. I had prayed for immediate, good news and that is what I got. Too bad we learned a few weeks later that they were wrong!!!! During the ultrasound the … Continue reading Not Enough

Events and Prayers

I have mixed feelings about keeping this blog going. It was such a huge part of my cancer journey, and I have been extremely blessed by the responses of people who read it.Before I was healed I mentioned a fear on here that when people stopped supporting me as much I would feel irrelevant. That definitely happened, as it happens to most people who deal … Continue reading Events and Prayers

Immanuel- God with Us

Luke 2:13-14And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God and saying, (14) “Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace among those with whom he is pleased!” “Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace among those with whom he is pleased!” He is with us. He came to live among us, and left … Continue reading Immanuel- God with Us

Someone still cares

“Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?” –Matthew 6:27 The chemo effects hit my mouth yesterday so I’m having difficulty speaking, eating, and swallowing. From what … Continue reading Someone still cares

Day 7

Yesterday was difficult. Met with local oncologist who we really liked. Unfortunately, he didn’t say anything contrary to the bad news we were aware of. I think it was extra hard for Yaacov because I hadn’t told him about the incurable part so he didn’t find out until Dr. Rassam told him. Then we went home and Yaacov told my dad, who also hadn’t known. … Continue reading Day 7